A Journey of Loss, Love and New Beginnings

Recalling the poignant events of March 2020 brings a mix of emotions, from heartache to hope. That fateful month, just before undergoing back surgery, I faced the painful decision to bid farewell to one of my cherished dachshunds, a loyal companion of 14 years. The weight of loss was crushing, compounded by the looming uncertainty of the pandemic that soon engulfed the world.

Returning home from surgery on March 4, I found solace in the comforting presence of my remaining doxy, a steadfast ally in the isolating days that followed. Yet, fate dealt another blow when my second furry friend fell ill, prompting yet another heartbreaking good-bye. COVID, with its grip tightening, left me not only grappling with isolation but also bereft of my beloved pets.

In the midst of this turmoil, I sought a ray of hope in the form of a new furry friend. Anticipating the inevitable aging of my doxies, I had reached out to a breeder specializing in mini Australian shepherds. Despite the breeder’s distance in a Chicago suburb and the unavailability of pet dogs at the time, I patiently waited, hopeful for a new addition to my family.

As I mourned the loss of my second pup during those agonizing three months, a glimmer of hope emerged. Through the breeder’s connection, I learned of a mini Aussie shepherd available in Iowa. Despite the distance, my longing for companionship outweighed any logistical challenges.

With determination and the support of my boyfriend, we embarked on a journey to Iowa on a Saturday morning, venturing into the unknown during the pandemic’s peak. Arriving at the breeder’s secluded farm, we were greeted by a chorus of miniature barks and wagging tails, and among them, the newest member of our family.

As I locked eyes with the tiny ball of fur eagerly awaiting our arrival, I felt a surge of emotion. Love, raw and immediate, enveloped me. The breeder welcomed us warmly, introducing us to the precious pup who would fill the void left by Bailey and Chloe. Reflecting on their memories, I merged their names into one, christening our newest family member Caylee.

In the face of loss and uncertainty, Caylee became a beacon of hope, a reminder that even in the darkest times, love and companionship endure.

Deb Coch

Administrative Support & Program Management

Department of Finance